A Small Update on Things

Wow I didn't realize it had been this long since I last wrote on here. I'm in my 6th month of pregnancy now. And it's a boy! And I'm hoping it stays that way lol It's been an ok pregnancy so far. Had an issue with blood pressure early on but with meds it's be under control. The baby is about 2lbs by now and it's taking it's toll on my hips. I've gained 12lbs so far, which I guess isn't bad and I tell myself that. But I honestly can't wait to get back to working out, which probably won't happen until mid January with a c-section. We're still in the housing crisis. We've been lucky that this house hasn't sold yet and our landlord said she is done with that particular real estate agency. I'm really hoping we can get by until the spring before we have to move. I don't like the idea of having to move in the winter or around the holidays and a birth on top of it. And I'm hoping rent prices will return to normal by then which is probably unlikely. Needless to say with financial stress, the housing stress and the normal family drama, my life hasn't felt very magical at all.

I wish I had time to meditate, I think I would feel alot better. But my daughter is on this "lets only sleep 4 hours a night" kick and it leaves me exhausted and as soon as I hit my bed, or anything else comfy, I'm out. And all that lack of sleep takes it toll, especially on a pregnant body. I think things with my sister are about to hit a boiling point. Lately, I find myself not saying much about things that might bring conflict because I'm just sick of fighting and I don't want my daughter to be around it. But my sister just turned 18 almost 2 months ago and won't get a job. Has never had a job or worked a day in her life. And when we tell her she needs to get a job and she needs to throw some money at the household income around here, even if its only $200 a month, she gets pissed off. She isn't willing to do anything to help out but she expects to have her laptop, her tv, her internet, her cell phone, new clothes and food. And because she has no income and can't buy any of her necessities, she has started using mine. For example, my cosmetics. I now spend double what I would normally spend on makeup.

I try to hide it when I can remember but it really annoys me that I just can't keep my cosmetics in my bathroom cabinet, where it belongs. And she will use it up and not say anything, just put it back. So when I go to put on eyeliner or foundation, I find the containers empty. And another thing is the lack of help. Everyone does their part around here, I may be lacking lately because I hurt so much and I have no energy but I do my best. However, she does nothing except keep her room clean. She won't help with dishes and on the rare occasion that she does then it usually takes a big fight. She doesn't take care of her cats, at all. My mom says to get rid of them but they have been with us for awhile and it's not their fault she won't take care of them. So we just take care of them because you have to, they need you to. But I have to cut this short because we are having an unplanned family trip to a zoo. But I'll be back to update with pics and more writing because I really did miss writing here. And I have to update my layout and all the buttons.